It's funny how sometimes the ones that disappoint you the most are the ones that you least expect. Call me stupid to raise my hopes up thinking that everyone is steady enough to follow through the initial itinerary, only to find out the change of plans nearer to date. Not to mention naive to think that everyone's 'anything you plan & i'll just follow"' is true. Why can't i find that steady friend who doesn't change plans after saying yes? I feel like a hypocrite because on one hand i'm that friend who says it's fine to go ahead to do what you like if the plans aren't what you want. But on the other hand, i can't help but hope for a little in return... Oh, what am i even saying, who would? Like every man for himself, why would anyone sacrifice their happiness for another? It's the truth of society these days.
Ugh, gotta stop being childish and contradicting. I do it willingly and technically nobody forced me. Angel, remember, don't give and expect something in return. I subconsciously think for others first anyway. I don't know myself sometimes.
You're just being upset for nothing. & Disneyland is love.
Big shout out to that uber driver that fetched me to whitesands after work, because without him, i wouldn't have found out about this mind boggling candy. Up till now, i still don't know how to describe it's taste. It's awesome. Bought 3 big packs, and surprisingly it's not expensive at all.
Don't chase after someone who doesn't want to be chased. If they want to be there, they will be. And if they treasure you, their actions will show. Don't settle for anything less. You deserve someone who knows how to make things up to you after hurting you. Not someone who is good with just the word, "sorry". You deserve the best.
Finally back to being single again. Maybe i still do love him, but then again, it's exhausting having recurring arguments almost once every few days about the same old issues and promising that he'll change every single time. I am truly an idiot to believe that maybe a leopard is able to change it's spots. Who am i kidding. I've never been this furious my entire life.
"you're raging on your own, i'm just looking."
"You're making yourself angry. Not me."
Saying this when i'm already mad?
Really. An utter disappointment.
You win. Hands down.
Met up with chanel today for dinner since winson is overseas at the moment and talked about the rom issue & at during then, i concluded this:
What one person deduce is the "best" way of solving a situation, might not correspond to what the other party might hold true. Everyone has a different approach of handling situations and what might be right for them, might not be suitable for others. Example, I'd prefer an indirect confrontation while others like solving it face to face. Therefore, maybe, just maybe, what caused the dispute wasn't the confrontation but by how people handles problems differently what made the problem, become a bigger problem. Does this sound right? Some might disagree but idk, don't make something so insignificant complex. The more you think about the issue, the more it misleads you. Let bygones be bygones, we'd all be happier this way.
