Escape, Uncertainties

In need of a vacay. Away from my mundane life.

So tired.

I want to escape the normalcy of life, to travel around the world, to wake up with a beautiful view in front of me, and to discover all the aesthetic places in this world that makes one speechless.

Life would be so much easier if we had the answers to all these confusing feelings.

Afraid of falling, afraid of vulnerability. Just thinking of the past repeating itself haunts me.
What should I do? Feeling so lost. I need a hug.

Gemini Contradictions

It's funny how sometimes the ones that disappoint you the most are the ones that you least expect. Call me stupid to raise my hopes up thinking that everyone is steady enough to follow through the initial itinerary, only to find out the change of plans nearer to date. Not to mention naive to think that everyone's 'anything you plan & i'll just follow"' is true. Why can't i find that steady friend who doesn't change plans after saying yes? I feel like a hypocrite because on one hand i'm that friend who says it's fine to go ahead to do what you like if the plans aren't what you want. But on the other hand, i can't help but hope for a little in return... Oh, what am i even saying, who would? Like every man for himself, why would anyone sacrifice their happiness for another? It's the truth of society these days.

Ugh, gotta stop being childish and contradicting. I do it willingly and technically nobody forced me. Angel, remember, don't give and expect something in return. I subconsciously think for others first anyway. I don't know myself sometimes.

You're just being upset for nothing.
& Disneyland is love.

Thoughts

Do you ever just want to pack up and leave out of the blue without saying anything to anyone and just leave to start a life anew? Sick and tired of expecting change, knowing that things will always be the same.

 

Project Executive's work is tough, I do want to persevere and make the best out of this learning process of life. But just how can I do my best when there's nothing for me to hang on to; & the saddest part is people don't know how I truly feel, masked behind this act of phony.

 

Gonna try working for 1 more month,

at best, 7 more months. Who knows?

Hopefully things will get better.

 

I need a long break from this madness. I want to do something cracracrazyyy, to spice up thy life. Like bungee jumping, skydiving, shark diving, paranormal investigating, learning biking, parkour, I need that adrenaline rush.

 

Cheers,

angelseah

READY FOR KOREA __*

Really excited for Korea trip this June (3 weeks+) ! With awesome people, shopping, food & sightseeing, it can't get any better than this :> But, I'm a tad hopeful that the others are joining us because the more the merrier yes?

Thoughts:

Travelling the world is a dream for many & I am thinking, what's mine? 
Where do I want to go to? If I could travel right now for free, where?
I've thought about it for sometime now..

So here's my dream,

I want to board a cruise to Alaska to witness the magical Aurora/Northern lights with their Ice-Age old glaciers - snow mountains - rivers & fjords. The cool breeze, icebergs, colorful lights & peace. Sighh, serenity, one of the most the most spiritual and beautiful places in the world. Just imagining it makes me happy :>

Joy,
angelseah.

Mission #1 : Korea

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you . 

Actually no, I don't. 

Just really dislike what you're doing. 

Hah, 自暴自弃. Good for you. 

It's been awhile since I last blog. Working my ass off to earn my fair keep of money & get my air tickets booked for Korea in June & save up a whole lot for shopping! :D :D :D So from now it's basically no unnecessary spending, i must maintain. 

Will keep working working working working, till June that is. 

Sigh, gotta plan my education a-sap. 
At least a Degree in Singapore to survive. 

You can do it , Seah An-gel. Must.

#Love photography, Olympus EPL-5 please.