maybe if i left, you'd realize how important am i

Yep. Useless & Disappointing 

Sick and tired waiting for you be to a better man. To be more initiative and mature. To know what you should and should not do. I really can't see my future with someone like you. Why do I feel like i'm the guy in the relationship, thinking for our future but not you? 

No money, fine. I'm willing to pay as long you let me know in advance. No work, fine. I sent you resume templates, proofread it, edited your resume and even sent them to companies for you. Then, I found a job opportunity for you but you just can't be bothered. Didn't even try to remember the position title and can even (almost) send to the wrong the email address when it's just a simple task. Used my money to pay for your bills, fine. Phone line still not reconnected after a month. Honestly, Singtel is just playing you because you are not firm enough to get things done. I would have got it done in 2 days max no questions asked honestly. Constantly at home but take ages to reply my message. Always using the computer for Dota and watching random YouTube videos, not doing anything productive. Don't even want to meet me with the excuse of no money (but the fact is you are just lazy) even when I say I can pay for the food and it doesn't have to be expensive. $2 chicken rice is alright too. I just want to spend time with you. But no. I have to literally force you to meet me. & you had to reply 'meet where, no excuses i show up where you want me to be.' what is no excuses? Do you have to reply like that? Do I need to have a legit reason to meet my boyfriend? It's not like i am asking to meet everyday no? & now you're ignoring me for getting angry. Ha. Forget it. Just stay home and rot for all I care. 

Sometimes I just feel there is no difference when i'm with or without you. I'm able live perfectly well without you, maybe even better. Happier. I don't get angry these days because I can't expect or hope for anything from you anymore. No money no career, you're 25 for god's sake. Not 12. & you're not even worried for yourself when I am the one worrying for you. Maybe your ego is too huge to apologize right away when i'm angry. Maybe you just like to make me angrier to a point where it's already pointless to say sorry. Is this relationship a joke to you? I'm on the verge of giving up. So many times. Used like a tool. I'm tired of spoon-feeding you, telling you step by step of how to make me happy, teaching you how to apologize.... i'm just sick and tired of caring and worrying for your future. Always thinking for your sake, going along with the things you like. (Like eating kfc or thai food when i'm sick even though my flu will get worse) For me, everything i think for you. To you, everything you say or do is about yourself. If I wanted something i'd have to ask you specifically. & Then again, i'm always asking what you wanted instead, always knowing and giving you what you like because i'd like you to be happy. & Right now, the problem is you still don't think that you did anything wrong, even when i told you the reason why i'm angry. I don't understand why i'm even giving you so many chances, 5 years, and you still don't know what to do to make me happy.  So now i'm gonna do what's best for me and set myself free.

"All relationships have one law. 

Never make the one you love feel alone, 

especially when you're there."

http://elitedaily.com/dating/youre-not-one-8-ways-tell-time-say-goodbye/1099469/

NEW HAIRCUT

Got a new haircut before going to Malacca. Been contemplating whether i should to try a new hairstyle whereby it becomes short when i tie it up since i couldn't decide to leave my hair long or cut it short. The hairdresser finally got the gist of what i wanted and please no more Japanese bangs, no more straight cut hair, no more full length fringe D; ......it's everywhere in Singapore!!! So far I'm really loving the end result. Well, at least it's unique, being able to have long hair, medium length hair and short bob hair whenever I want #cheaptrills (Pay 1 price 3 styles yo), but one downside is I've gotta blow dry it everyday and my hairdryer is broken. Not to mention that i'm just too damn lazy to blow dry my hair. Oh well. 

Goodnight

#DONTJUDGECHALLENGE

There's this #dontjudgechallenge trend going on & somehow a majority of people are displeased by it. But why? I feel that this challenge teaches people to appreciate how they look because the fact is that they could be uglier with missing teeth, uneven spots, single brows yes? no? (;￢＿￢)  I feel it also teaches society that there's no ugly people, just lazy ones. & I actually like this challenge because it teaches people to not judge others by their looks because they might turn out to be really beautiful ❤ Just like the ugly duckling story.

Sigh, why is this challenge being perceived as 'making fun of people who are less attractive' instead? Discrimination?? and Rude? Rude to who? People you think are ugly? Such an ugly perception to life..idgi.. Besides, it comes down to your mindset, whether or not you want to let this innocent challenge affect you negatively or see the positives in it. The people in the video are having fun, it's entertaining and watching their drastic change is amazeballs. It's rather impressive I might say. But.. there's always a percentage of critical people in this society who choose to see the bad point of view to everything. Oh well.

#nothinggoodtosaydontsay
#nonofyourbusinessanyway
#kbye

Past 3 Weeks....

Slept for more than 14 hours earlier today & i can't fall asleep now...Just finished watching the entire series of Kyoukai no Kanata and Baby Steps. Despite the art, i'm really liking the story-line for Baby Steps! It teaches us a lot on never giving up and always believing in yourself. Wordwordword. Kyuokai no Kanata got me majorly confused halfway through but their fighting scenes / romance plot is quite good somehow. It got me hooked after the third episode. Art's is good, pretty girls and handsome guys with my kind of humor. Lol.

Today:

Went for an interview at Comfort for the position of Payroll Executive (?) Took me almost three hours, consisting of 2 interviews, one with the HR / Accounts department, the other with the boss, a test on setting up a new business and it's external factors to consider, and lastly a personality test. I really hope i do get the job, working in a big company has its perks and their bonuses is definitely attractive, provided if they are willing to give me the salary that i'm looking at first... If all things goes well, I want to work as long as possible in the company. The boss is really friendly and looks reasonable too. It's good. At the meantime, gotta send my resume to more companies...

Goodbye.