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Rented a booth for a flea,
do come and support!
On 24th Sep 2011
Club Soul: Flashlight Batteries

Is this the end or just another beginning. Can someone tell me what am I actually seeking. 2 days in a row, give me back my freedom once more. Stop wanting so much from me because there's only so much I can give. Your eyes so accusing like they have any rights to criticise at all...

Humor

One fine day

Love is ...
The person you keep checking for texts from.
The person who makes you blush for things he says.
The person who has flaws but is still perfect to you.
The person who you get mad at but you can't ignore.
The person that you talk about your future together.
The person that tells you I Love You everyday.
The person that you think about every second.
The person that will always want to hangout with.
The person that always wants to cuddle.
The person that never fails to make you smile.
The person that only wants you & nothing else.

xoxo - angelseah

Differencess

Visit Esther's babygirl Kylie this afternoon & Yan Chin brought her 13 month old baby Adelyn there too. I swear they're the cuteeest at that age & I'm actually good with kids (ahem). Working at M)phosis is a joy because Liying is working with me & sales period always get me excited on cheap deals along with 50-70% discounts :D :D

Cab-ed home from work since we're able to claim taxi fare. Jerk driver drove us back by a longer distance wist complaining that fetching us wasn't profitable for him. Omg, will not hold it against him because he's just a sad old man.

♥ had chalet so we met up for supper at macdees & thank you for sending me home. I love you! ♥ 

Happy Birthday to you ~

Happy birthday to Chanel, say you're twenty. Omo, we are getting old! Haha, hope you like our present because it's expensive. Planning to bake either cupcakes or cake & buy helium balloons as well, i think i'm going broke. But salary arrived, count me lucky. She too bought me a bowler hat from Taiwan that i've always wanted, but after actually having it i'm not wearing as much because wearing a hat in Singapore really attract stares from people. 

P.s I love eating thai with you ♥

HELLO

Things to do: 

Practice Organ | Notes for improvisation | Give singtel a call on multiple internet failures | Inquire cheque re-issue.

Many likes for that long post Of #50 likes/love you did. Laughed a lot while reading but touched tears made it blurry after that. That guardian warrior protecting my heart has fallen & I started to feel again. Missing you millions, hope you are too. Counting down the days, just to see you ♥

Mixed feelings

The house of night series are rubbing off on me. I would read late into the night forcing myself to read until i have to sleep. I need to stop my brain from thinking & relax.

Tattoos pics on tumblr are damn sexy. Love looking at different tattoo art, they're so pretty. Really would like to get a few. Aiyo help, i can't decide.

Don't be feeling inadequate,
because you're the one I chose.
So why are you still comparing,
just you & nothing else.

A JOB OPPORTUNITY

Found a part time job, 5-day-a-week, 8-hours-a-day. I have apparently zero tolerance for work. Complained about not having a job & now not anticipating for work or school. (Why am i like this)

I want to be like in Sims having not a job, but a profession. Playing Sims3 for the past many days, I swear I could play it whole day long. Most brilliant game established. I would proudly show off my creation to everyone, call me retard because I am. Too much random is not good (scientifically proven true)

Night,
angelseah

Doesn't stop here

On repeat.

Honestly why do peole lie about stuff that are so, insignificant. Guess it's just a huge disappointment this time round. Stop covering up your lies when you can't hide'em. Even when i told you i've found out? Saying coincidental is bullshit, sorry to burst your bubble but i'm really not stupid.

I wish i could live and not care.
Even if the world comes crashing down.
i wish i could just not give a fuck

Goodnight world

I'll be there when you need me

Thank you for everything and all you've done for me, I really really really do appreciate it. I love you more then anyone even could. I miss you every second, every minute, every hour, every day, even now. You make my heart flutter every time. 

& If I was in a room filled with millions of men that wanted me, I would still pick you over everyone else.

(ツ)

Childish Rumors

Just because you didn't get asked, doesn't mean that i don't know. Don't lie & say that it's someone else, because you'll just look like a fool. Some of us really have to learn how to keep his/her mouth shut.

We need people like this to stop talking and discussing wrong information.
We should stop doing that, gossip. Talk about misled.

Good day.

IPAD2 WISH CAME TRUEE :>

My wish came true & i've got an iPad 2! ♥ Love the presents from everyone, especially those macaroons. At long last, i'm going to celebrate my (belated) birthday tomorrow. Can't wait, it's been awhile since i saw everybody.

Bonus, mummy will be flying to Indonesia on a work trip tomorrow. Woot, F R E E D O M ! 

Venue: Parrots's house
Time: Earlier than me because how can you later than me?
Be there or else

:D angelseah

Officially nineteen

Heal The World Concert was great, many thanks to Shu Kiat for letting us have those tickets. T-ara, After School, Mblaq & T-max. Ji Yeon is so very beautiful, hope to be like her. Lol. Happy Birthday to Ji Yeon, hey your birthday falls on the same day as i.  While ftisland's 4th Anniversary is today too, lucky 7 June see?

Thank you Zhong ping, Parrot & Shu kiat, top 3 who gave me happy birthday messages. 
Thanks ya'll, you guys rock my smelly socks.

All for now!

angelseah

BIRTHDAY THOUGHTS

Soon to be nineteen. oh my god. Have you ever thought what will it be like few years down the road, where will you be? What will you be doing? Will you be rich, successful, popular, famous, maybe more mature? Or the exact opposite? Been thinking what do I want to buy or do by twenty. None of these are awe inspiring nor be a life changing experience. Maybe I'll wish for something greater on the 21st yes?

Long list of want-to-do/get

iPad2 white 32GB 3G + wifi | DSLR compact mini with beauty effects | Dr Marten's boots | Supra shoes | Skull candy or beat's headphones | Skull candy earpieces | Polaroid films|High waist shorts | Shopping money | Ticket to Korea | Recognized Degree | Full time job | Travel | Driving licence | USS | Volks Wagon Convertible | Hair dyed | Tattoo | Diet

Begging for a tattoo with most people disagreeing. So I've decided to get henna & try. Shall see shall weeee~

Somewhat Afraid

Do you feel that:

There’s always some truth behind every "Just kidding".
There's always some knowledge behind every "I don’t know".
There's always some emotion behind every "I don’t care".
There's always some pain behind every "I'm okay’.”

Congratulations to Chanel, you have finally graduated with a diploma. Seeing this made me think about 5 years ago, when we're all still in secondary school. & now we are at our next stage in life. Time sure flies by really quickly. But I'm glad we're still friends.

Time to sleep, Great Singapore Sale is now on & I have lots of jobs to do.
Busy, but worth it! Because I need the money T^T

Till then, 

angelseah, 

Signing off

LOVE4 TATTS

Don't be afraid and let's learn to be brave.

If my heart stop beating, what does it mean?

Does it mean that I'll stop caring?
Does it mean that I'll stop loving?
Does it mean that I'll have no more feelings?
Will I be missed if I'm dead?
Who will remember and who will forget?
Who will cry or erase me from memory?

Believe me or not, the world we're living in right now is fake.

Strangers, acquaintances, friends and family.

Will there be anyone whom you can give your heart to?

I'll keep the faith... Trust is a very conflicting thing.

So continue smiling and walk on.

TRUST ISSUES

Watching muttons at midnight, Clicknetwork's HOTSEAT! Major fan of clicknetwork.

Life is so frustrating, someone just shoot me in the head damn it. Conflicts. Issues. I don't want everyone to be stress or somewhat disappointed. Clarifying & knowing the truth will be best. We'll see who is speaking the truth at the very end. Trust is really an issue between friends. Asking myself why am I helping the people that don't even trust me. Really, everything comes down to communication.

& thing is, my headache is pissing me off.
How long will this last? It's passing on to a migraine.
Hot then cold. Felt like vomiting while asleep.
Not pleasant at all.

I hate being sick.

angelseah, signing off

DECISIONS

Weather has been pretty hot these days but it suddenly rain a bitch-ass thunder storm this afternoon. Which is LOVEEEEEE ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

I'm also annoyed at myself for giving me a massive headache because I've slept the entire day from 12am - 3am - 7am & 9am - 3pm, 6pm - 8pm. Sleep, then wake up, & going back to sleep again is not the right way to go. 

Now comes the killer headache along with shoulder aches and a slightly feverish forehead. Topped with aching arms and legs (idekw)

I'm like an old woman with rheumatism.
Goodness me.

Goodnight again, angelseah

TICKTHOUGHTS

Feeling down lately.
Mood swings and not knowing why.

Sometime people say stuff that hurts.
Even if it's not meant for you,
subconsciousness will tell you it is.
Making you feel, well,
worse then you already are.

Haha.
angelseah

NEVER SAY NEVER.

After watching Justin Bieber's Never say never, I've changed my take on him. (Not that my views of him before were bad!!) But it's funny how someone so young can already be so talented, is that what they call a genius? What was I doing when I'm at his age? This movie motivated me to work harder from now on and i should reflect on myself for giving up time and again.

QOTD:

"I hate it, when someone mentions the name of the person, 

I no longer wish to remember."

IN THE MOMENT

Justin Bieber came to Singapore and while looking for him, we found his crew instead! Tad disappointing not being able to see JB but still, it's amazing to meet the people behind the scenes that made his concert a success. There's Dan Kanter the guitarist, great man who gave us his guitar pick. (Oemmgee??) Then there's the bassist and drummer that we took a picture with. It's such an honor to meet them and they are all really nice! 

DJ Masa is in Singapore too but I've missed his arrival.
Chanel went to the airport to find him tho.
I hope she sees him.

Random fact #1
I've got fetish for guys that is able to look handsome with long hair...
I like tall slim looking megane guys.

Having a unique voice is a plus, and is slightly sadist / tsundere / shy.
Aka. Lee Hong Ki !!! Kbye

SOCIETY

A little bird said that a song can change your mood of what you want it to be.

#Nowplaying

Artist: Gavin Degraw

Song track: I Don' Want To Be

Album: Chariot

Deep meaning of the society, one meets the wrong people & changes in this world. While the one that does his/her best to avoid blending in, ends up being like one of them too. Having 1 the same, becoming pretenders.

At least now I know that somewhere, someone feels the same about today's society. 10 people around you, 6 would betray you. It is not self deceiving to trust no one. It's taking precaution, it's putting one foot on the ground to protect yourself.

Been there, done that.
Have you?

WANT FABULOUS..//

Guess what.

I've got a new addiction for arcade. Bishi bashi and jubeat.. oh dear. I know it's a waste of money & I'm supposed to get a job, save up plenty of money, invest and maybe get back even more. So i can live the dream of becoming a "Tai Tai", stay home all day and do whatever i want to! Damn goals. Totally awesome. 

I know i should hurry and start giving my parents allowance instead of them providing for me too. AND I'm know i'm also supposed to start my degree but i'm just not the study type alright?! Maybe I'll work part time & get some experience first..... Ughhhhhh!

"I need something inspiring to help me get along. 

I need a little fabulous is that so wrong?!!" 

- Sharpay Evans. 

This songs fits my thoughts perfectly.
I'm behaving like a brat. Just stop.

Oh. &HAPPY BIRTHDAY XANDER !
BE HONORED. (You better be or else!!)

Signing off.

DRAMA EP-1

What is with all the attention seeking going on around? It's been going on for ages already. Get a grip guys! Geezus!

There's so many things that I want to say,
but I don't have the bloody guts to convey.
Unhappiness not spoken.
Anger bottled up in silence.
Happy times not shared.
What is this confusing feeling??

Sigh...
I envy those who can speak their mind clearly and when their words carry weight, people will actually bother listening to them. Unlike me. No one even cares. Ugh, I need change. Give me more power.

Au revoir, angelseah

AGAINST TIME..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARRIS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER.

Many thank you to Harris for the cake 

&

Estherrrrr!!!! I didn't get to eat your cake :<

Anyways. Hello,

Life has been giving me a drama episode every now and then.

Been waking up early these past few days for concerts, shopping, shopping, outings & whatnot. On the down side, i'm still sleeping at 7am. Almost.

You know, I kind of hate sleeping. I feel like it's a waste of time.

Maybe when I reach 25 it'd be another different story.

I better make full use of my youth right now!!

Fight-oh! angelseah.

IT'S MORNING D;

Time now: 6.27am, good morning.
Mood: Happy but tired

Just reached home and showered so i decided to blog while waiting for my hair to dry.

Went to Singapore E-awards 2011 earlier and it was great but i feel that it was not as awesome as the one from 2010. Chanel joined us later in the day and i felt like someone didn't wanted her to come (drama no 1). Liying went home early (as we expected) & said that she was going to 'mia' for god knows why again (drama no 2). (Really guys girls?) Sometimes I really don't understand my girlfriends.

I spent the entire day worthwhile & I'd like to do that again! Woke up early and making full use of the day feels really productive. I think I love night time the most. Is it weird to love darkness more than light?

Like, "darkness does not equate to evil, just as light does not always bring good"
(Quote from House of Night Novels)
A book I'm currently reading.
It's fiction but it's good.

God, House of Night Novels are eating into me. I'm almost vampire.

Time check: 6.40am
Sun's out, goodnight.
:)

APOLOGETIC

HAPPY APRIL FOOL. 

We made a bad joke on April fool's day. 

Friends certainly didn't think it was funny i'd say. 

Scared the shit out of out them actually. 

Oh well, joke failed. We're so terribly sorry. 

I hope they accept our apology. 

HEY YOU :)

Heart to heart talks are the best!!! Right? Well...most of the times i guess. & So i heard someone cooked up a story. Just to gain more attention. (For what idek!?) Yea yea, don't worry, please take it, giving it all to you. Welcome and don't come back. Honestly, I don't want this attention that you crave for at all. Do you think I will take it away from you? Nope. All I want is a no-drama-life. Is that so difficult? 

Maybe we have one too many friends in the clique. My my, this is getting interesting.

JUST. UGHH!

Why do people fall into a trap that only I am able to see.
Those mere mortals can't feel it, that dark aura filled with bullshit.
All I can to do now is to wait cautiously, while watching a fake act with pity.
Knowing that deep in my heart, soon the truth will come to light..
& then finally people will start believing me.

angelseah, signing off

ALL BUT AN ACT :(

Deleted my previous blog (again) because I can't remember my password for the gazillion-th time D; D: D;

Gahh, such a loser. 

Hmm. The story of my 'perfect' life that people might soon come to realize that it's just a facade. Some people think that they know how my life is like; and jealous they are sometimes... But the question is, 'when will people be able to see that my life is not all butterflies and ponies, and it is not as great as it seems to be?' 

I'm sick of all this phony act by you whom i once called 'a friend', that secretly (not so secret anymore because i found out of your bitch side ) stabs you at the back when you aren't looking. Bullshit.

To you, my phony friend, 

I regret knowing. 

& I hate to regret

angelseah, signing off

FIRST POST ツ

If only I can say what I am really thinking.
If only people can see what I am seeing.
If only you know what I am not liking.
If only this place I'm much alive in
is, truly believing.

Most stories with happy endings,
always has an awful beginning.
Will mine be the same?
I am still patiently hoping.

Really, giving up will not do any good.
But why bother, if you think you're gonna lose?

Random questions has been popping up in my mind lately, must be one of the stages of growing up. Teenage drama huh.. Been thinking of what do i want to do in life, i'm too comfortable doing nothing.. & I'm pretty well sure it ain't good. Damn.

Cheers, angelseah