What am I supposed to do,

I'm tangled in thoughts, this train of confusion, in reality or fantasy.

& I ask myself:

What the hell are you doing, Why are you doing this, How much more can you take, Why are you making your life more complicated than it already is?! Help. I've reached a new low. 

Congratulations angelseah, you should just give up talking to people in a whole, maybe life would just be a whole lot simpler like that.

2013 maybe,
frustrated- signing off*

:(

Thoughts..

Another few more days to the start of a new year & thinking back I have nothing to regret but at the same time anxiety sinks in for the uncertainty for year 2013.

Resolution for the new year is to continue to love what i do & never regret any of my decisions. Sometimes one really do forget about the things we stand by in life, to just relax & enjoy the ride so at your best you can be happy.

You are your greatest enemy.
always remember that.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS ❤ 

*-New Direction-*

Quite a busy month this December, hanging out, eating, shopping, freelancing, looking out for more event jobs and meeting people i love.

And of course, Christmas! Always a time for giving. 
& when people actually start doing 
random acts of kindness for one another, 
it's really heartwarming to see ♥ 
Oh, & to receive presents haha, :>

Been sick on and off the past few days & I hope to get back to my 100% asap because there is just too many things to be done. 

Final Theory Test | Birthdays | 

Christmas shopping | Gift exchange | 

Get nails done & hair dyed | 

Ugh black roots 

Time is never enough 

┻━┻ ︵ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ︵ ┻━┻

Hopeful person,

Paddle-pop Roses ❤ 

I put people to a test once in awhile. 
But sadly, so many failed. It's disappointing, truly disappointing. 
Always a moment of doubt, honesty, all's just meant to be. 
Take one step a time, no worries. 

:D , angelseah-*

If you're not gonna bother, i'm not gonna care either.

All is but a facade

I need a getaway, to place without constant accuse & falsified lectures from the parents. They don't see my tears of disappointment. Please give me the strength to live on & never return to this forsaken misery. Just where can I go? There's no one to go to when one needs help, what a world.

Replying people with a smile on my texts, a tad too happy. Nobody knows my sorrow tears behind'em, hate myself sometimes, I'm a fake. I envy an open minded family, why can't I have that? :l

Troubles & sadness,
just need a bear hug, 
to cry a river of tears &
tomorrow will be fine.


Fuck this family for I don't have one. Never had.

Choices

Can't you see it in my eyes, those words of doubt & assumptions. 
Don't know where to start, nor do I know how to begin. 
Can time reverse a year back, to where we all first met.

Afraid to lose only but to let go.

Sucks when your past creates a barrier for the present, 
such that in reality,
everything changes.

angelseah :/

Saving up a whole lot! :D Sometimes I get irritated of childish people who don't know how to save money, to at least have a tiny bit of personal savings. What, money don't fall from the sky alright? :<