FIRST TIME IN FOREVER

Watched Disney's latest movie 'Frozen' and it was unexpectedly better than I expected.

So much love for cartoons & well, i'm waiting for how to train your dragon 2!!

Boyfriend love left for Korea last Friday and so far i'm still handling it fine,

Been shopping for Christmas gifts to distract myself and boy it's DIFFICULT!!! 

Bought a - 

1) hot-pink 'Prada' bag for Adelyn,
2) Cardigan + Shirt for Drayden,
3) FOX kid's cropped tee & shorts for Kylie
lastly,
4) Red smart checkered top for Xavier.

I'm really happy with my buys but children's clothes are so expensive these days and i'm so broke right now. 

Sigh

All the past memories are coming back to me like a long lost dream.
It's been ages since I went out with the rest, like how it was before.
But it feels different, everything feels different now.
if only...

Irony

There are times when I get so bored and start observing people around me, then realized that I've got to stop this. 

My gut feels that all of them don't really like me..but are acting like they do. Not that I don't like them...all pretentious and phony. I just don't belong here. Or perhaps anywhere. I don't get this place. I don't get this whole lot of people. 

Having a bad day. October's a bad month.

On the bright side. I got a seat in the train home from work. 
Hur, simple joys. 

BEAST/B2ST- 비가 오는 날엔 (On Rainy Days) [FULL HQ][ENG SUB]

You are like the raindrops falling from above.

Giving life to me with your love.

Was listening to music on the iPhone 5 and stumbled on this song by B2st. It suits the current mood so much that i'm having it on replay. Haa, blogging always inspire me & there are many tales that i want to share, but i've been sooooo lazyyyy- i know should be doing my work, but it's friday & i've got the 'time to blog mood' so i'm here.

Updates: August

Hectic! Birthdays on every week of that month and it pretty much burnt a hole in my pocket :C Anyway!

Happy 21st Birthday to:

-my longest friendship friend, Hazel Tan Yan Chin!

-my helluva crrraazzzyyy girl, Esther Rachel Lai! & lastly,

my closest clique of guys, Aunn Yee Fong & Chai Shu Kiat!

You guys are da best. Love ya'll.

I felt really.really bad for not wishing another friend happy birthday. & when i finally decided to text a happy birthday wish, his birthday was over. Sigh. Great, just great. Angel, grow some guts. Jeez.

IPHONE FAAAAAAIVE

Bello! I got a new phone - iPhone5 white 32GB :D 

I'm SOOOOO happy that my stress from work went away completely.

Got a clear (front) along with a diamond (back) screen protector,

a hotpink casing with matt transparent back AND

a ultrasupermegacuteeeeeeee polka-dot ribbon-ed dustcap!

While Liying got a pair of 3 eye alien monster dustcap,

TOTAL IT ONLY COSTS $10 FOR EVERYTHING.

DOUBLE HAPPINESS ! ! I LOVE CHEAP TRILLS OKAY?!

Okay. Erm. Goodbye.

Another anecdote

Finally a day at work that I don't have "shitstuff " to do and have my 'me' time to myself :D

Currently in the office, both bosses aren't around and I'm hoping they won't arrive anytime soon. Taking this free time I have to blog my thoughts because I've been so busy at work these days that there's no time for me to blog or do anything worthwhile anymore, there's no time for me to even shop! Sighh... I need my dose of shopping. First, I need a new phone. and a new camera, and a new computer.

Didn't get to sleep well last night because of the day-1-cramps and had to wake up at 4am just to down some pills in order to sleep better. It helped a little, but sleeping at 4am doesn't make me feel any less tired.

I want to go home to sleep and travel a year back when I can work part time events and do whatever I want all. the. time. Going out in the afternoon, spending the entire day doing something worthwhile and sleeping at anytime I want. That's life.

But... I guess only with money, I'll then be able to do the things I want. and right now, I want to go on a long holiday around the world, shop, take lots of beautiful pictures and sleep. AND NO MORE WORK! Gehhh, I don't hate this job, but neither do I love it. 

I think I'm meant to be a lazy fat cat that eats and sleep all day.
Maow. angelseah.

Everything's Gonna Be Alright

Please paint me a beautiful landscape (?)

Sometimes i feel that things are still the same, only to look back realize that it has pretty much changed. I can't be everyone's happy-pill, pretending that I'm carefree all the time. So much work to do and a damn hell lot of things to stress about in life...

But as the days past, it seems to be better, than yesterday, than before. Every year I wish for some smooth sailing till the world ends, that's all I'm asking for.

Thank you for the care and support even though I've been a bad person to you.

Last mistake, I apologize.

Thoughts about Twenty-one

Suddenly I'm afraid.. afraid of being 21 and living in this atypical world. I want to carry on living my life blithe and carefree, but there's just too much things to be stressed and be concerned of that I can't possibly think like a kid anymore. That little voice in my head telling me to do what I have to do, I can't make mistakes.. I hate the idea of being an adult, the idea of losing all my innocence. I need to be stronger. 

If I die tomorrow will I regret not doing the things I didn't do? 

I do ask myself this every now and then, but my answer is always the same.

- I have no regrets.

I feel that if I'll regret not doing what I want, I'll do it no matter what and put it as a priority. Don't regret the choices you choose to make, whether good or bad. All the possibilities in this world, why live with regrets when it comes down to the choices we make for ourselves..right? 

A little bird once asked me, 

Why do we live? The answer left an impact though it didn't really surprised me. 

And guess what? We live, not to work and provide for the family, not to enjoy the pleasures in life, not to study and get a good income job, not to make friends not to love but....in actual fact, we live.. 

... to die.

Cheers people,
angelseahx3

Summer Birthday

Chalet ☑ Cake ☐ BBQ ☐

 Venue | Costa Sands Pasir Ris Chalet | Start | 6 pm | Theme | deciding | Dinner | 6 pm | Cake Cutting | 11pm | Midnight Movie | Bowling | 12pm | Supper | 3 pm

Gonna be 21 in less than 3 weeks.. can't say I'm excited but rather hopeful that everything will go well on that day. Have to learn to be less angsty these days to not ruin every happy celebration :|
 

I want to take this time to thank all the people who have helped me in my life, no amount of thank you(s) are enough to express my gratefulness. My family, love and friends, those who stayed and left...that made be believe that there are somethings worth living for ❤

 

Sincerly, angelseah

I hate this evil place

I hate certain people sometimes, acting all big shot and mature.... while treating you like a kid, saying how they know everything in a boastful manner. No one bothered to ask what I'm thinking and start to judge, all they think is I'm angry I don't listen to explanations & I don't put myself in another's shoes. 

Especially that judgement talk came from the one I cherish most. It's upsetting. I'm learning not to talk so much, since they don't get it. Then I give up.

Right now, you are only liking the things I can give, not for who I am, nor what I like. I didn't know you think of me as such of an unreasonable person. Always listening to you friends instead. If happiness instead means to feel so much hurt, then I've given up being happy. Because no amount of happiness can make me feel less hurt then I already am. My heart is crying but no one knows.

You know what's the best ways to avoid affection. Don't talk. Then you won't miss anyone. The world is so big, I am just a small human that wouldn't make a difference anyway. 

 
irony,
angelseah.

Life, A Passing Parade

B I G   H A P P Y   B I R T H D A Y

K E N N E T H  & Z H O N G P I N G

18th May 2013. A Hectic day

Hair dyed to copper red wasn't pleasant, chemical burn.

But hey, no pain no gain yes?

Ever felt that in society, there's just one too many ungrateful people. In life, we tend to expect what we give is what we should get in return. Appreciation, the most important basic rule that many has forgotten... which caused a situation of a letdown.

Words that are said can never be taken back, those vitriolic words that makes one sad. Miscommunication is an inconvenience, but also an excuse. Thousands and hundreds of ways to restructure a sentence, yet you choose to misuse. Don't know what kind of impact they're leaving here, so harsh, and unforgettable.

I know it takes both hands to clap, but it's only wrong to get angry & say spiteful words when you're the one at fault. I'm just really really really sick and tired of people that thinks they are all mature, saying to comprehend both sides of the story but already judging me. Sigh, let bygones be bygones..

Went home early because i felt the awkwardness in the room when i arrived. &no, i don't want that & i think you'll be happier without me there. Kinda glad to get to see you again, not when i just left like that. I'm a coward.

Why are there so many problems in life?!

Where's my once upon a time.. :l

angelseah -*

4 + 1 theory - by Zachary Liu

True love or fickle infatuation.

Based on this idea that whenever we like someone, we go deeper into what is it that draws us to him or her. However that's merely an infatuation. But when more than three of the aspects from this theory are present, you can be pretty sure that it’s more than just a feeling. 

Mind. Heart. Body. Soul.

1. The Mind Aspect, Intellect

The way she thinks, processes and analyzes things beyond a shallow self-centeredness. The way she puts across thoughts not for winning an argument’s sake, but to understand or even sensibly debate opposing views that might leave anyone reflecting on her words or make one think differently. 

It’s the way she carries herself off with an aura of sophistication and enigmatic charm, that no matter how much I might already figure her out, she’ll still surprise you with something unexpected. And to talk endlessly about the concept of nothing, only then will you be able to talk about everything else.

2. The Heart Aspect

What really matters to her, her insecurities, fears, likes, dislikes, everything. To understand each other’s heart and learn to accommodate each other’s differences not ‘because I love him and that’s all that matters’. But to care or find out the little things about you. It’s not a matter of whether it bores him or not.. it’s a matter of whether he bothers or not.

Two people need to give and take, for any kind of relationship to work. If he really loves you and you're important to him, he'd take a greater effort to close the gap in differences between you two.

He’ll show it by the things he will do or be willing to do no matter how inconvenient or silly it might be, just because he knows it’ll make you happier or better. Two people wanting to understand each other.. sharing the good, the bad and possibly a future together; supporting each other’s feelings, values, dreams, thoughts and emotions.

3. The Body Aspect, Physical Attraction; Intimacy and Presence

I think the whole love at first sight concept is bullshit that only exists in movies and fairy tales. In reality, it isn't love but probably lust at first sight. Lust at first sight, that momentary attraction or desire– That’s really just a superficial physical attraction. 

Which leads to

4. The Fourth Aspect. Soul

The deepest form and the final affirmation that should answer any remaining doubt or questions as to whether we've truly fallen in love with a person.

It’s when you start noticing but still appreciate all the other little things - the flaws. It’s when you truly know a person stripped down of all their walls, exposed to their soul and yet still accept and love him or her. 

A level of understanding and acceptance, when you finally realize this is someone that you'll always want to tell everything to; and want to ask/know everything of as well. 

It’s when you actually want to share your life and trust your secrets with this person; and you can. This person cares and will really listen, giving you their undivided attention and genuine love; This one person makes your problem their problem and they go through it together with you just so you don’t have to go through the pain and tears alone.

❤

We often and will find one or two aspects in different people, that alone may be enough to make us attracted to them. That is not love, it's just liking the body and/or mind aspect of a person.

But on a rare occasion when you do meet someone who possess all four of these aspects. You’ll almost definitely know that he/she is not one of many but may just be the one.

So don't settle for anything less.

my kind of guy

1. Do you need him to be good looking?  - Nope. It's my personal preference.
2. Smart? - Yes! Intellectual debates and sweet words to humor me.
3. Preferred age?  - 5 year older to 5 years younger, acceptable.
4. Preferred height?  -  Same / Taller than me. (I'm 165cm)
5. How about sense of humor?  - Everyone likes a funny guy.
6. How about piercings? - Sexy
7. Accepts you for who you are?  - Obviously!
8. Pink hair?  - If he can pull it off?
9. Mushy or no?  - like it.
10. Thin or fat?  - Fit / Slim.. But not buff. 
11. Black, Brown or White (skin colour)? - Fair or tanned is fine.
12. Long hair or short hair? - Whichever looks good on him
13. Inked? - HOT. But not too much.
14. Smells good? - It's important.
15. Smoker? - No. I don't smoke.
16. Drinker? - Knows when to stop.
17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?  - Yes! I like good boys.
18. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar? - A Bonus!
19. Romantic? - Love it
20. Singer or dancer? - Bonus.
21. Vain? - Slightly vain is good.
22. With glasses? - Yes please. Love guys with specs!
23. With braces? - It's fine.
24. Shy type?  - Not too shy or it'd be awkward (Because I'm shy)
25. Rebel or good boy/girl?  - Mixture of both (Lol)
26. Active or passive? - Active.
27. Stunner? - Great. But i'll be jealous so maybe not...
28. Mr count-my-crush-until-you-drop?  - Flirt? No!
29. Dimples? - Cute!
30. Bookworm? - Reading is good. I like to read too.
31. Mr. love letter? - I'll appreciate.
32. Playful? - Yes!
33. A Flirt? - & I'll show him how the game is played.
34. Poem writer? - Can't appreciate.
35. Gamer? - Why not?
36. Adventurous? - A must!
37. Someone who likes to tease people? - Jokingly, yes. Upset people = No.
38. Loyal or faithful ? - Both is a must.
39. Good kisser? - Hot.
40. Loves kids? - Must.

Goodday
angelseahx3\

Thoughts

Do you ever just want to pack up and leave out of the blue without saying anything to anyone and just leave to start a life anew? Sick and tired of expecting change, knowing that things will always be the same.

 

Project Executive's work is tough, I do want to persevere and make the best out of this learning process of life. But just how can I do my best when there's nothing for me to hang on to; & the saddest part is people don't know how I truly feel, masked behind this act of phony.

 

Gonna try working for 1 more month,

at best, 7 more months. Who knows?

Hopefully things will get better.

 

I need a long break from this madness. I want to do something cracracrazyyy, to spice up thy life. Like bungee jumping, skydiving, shark diving, paranormal investigating, learning biking, parkour, I need that adrenaline rush.

 

Cheers,

angelseah

day to remember

Time Check: 630am / Saturday
Location: Bedroom
Day: Saturday 27.04.2013

 

Excited for USS & woke up too early for my own good :l
Picnic Basket that Shu Kiat & I came up with
❤ Sandwiches
❤ Egg Mayo topping
❤ Special Sardine topping
❤ Ham & Cheese
❤ Lettuce & Cherry Tomatos
❤ Pasta Rotini
❤ Pasta Sauce with bacon & minced meat
❤ Japanese Special Crab Stick
❤ Cheese Sausages/Chinese Sausages
❤ Seaweed Chicken
❤ Fruits
❤ Water WATER W A T E R.
Maybe it's a lill too much. Hurhurhur
BUT! Dad agreed to fetch us to USS! BEST DAD EVER.

And I want to give Shu Kiat a big 

 

T H A N K   Y O U 

 

for his VIP tickets to USS.

I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready I'm Ready

Daaahahahahahaha ohmygodmyboilingwaterrsdnfclsdcm.Kbye

angelseah, out D;

If there's a soulmate for everyone

The one person that you always wanted, the one person that you can make you happy during difficult times, the one person that can give you the trust you need and be comfortable with; is nowhere to be found. Then again I think if you're in love, why have such thoughts? 

& later you ponder, maybe it's not love, maybe it's just another non lasting bad romance. Sometimes, friends just might surprise you with their confession, but I am taught to not take things seriously & What is the 'what if' between us will just remain as another wonderment for us to not feel sorry about. 

In a way, I still need to change from all those repeated scene.

Always having this problem. All this repeated burnout scene.

'Cause everybody's somebody's fool.
Everybody's somebody's play thing,
and there are no exceptions to the rule.
Yes, everybody's somebody's fool.'

I am a fool, angelseah

Sick D;

 

I'M FALLING SICK :< \

 

Sneezing Sniffing Blowing my nose non stop since this morning & my office dustbin on the desk is overflowing with my tissues already. Mehh

Was trying out this game on my iPad and it got me addicted, but we'll have to pay after episode 1 which totally sucks. I love me some zombie aploclapse, smashing brains' cool. Oh oh! & the storyline is actually taylored to how you play it! Wah awesomeee, might start watching the series when i have time to spare. Hmm, Yee fong says he has Season 1 and 2, should get from him when he's back from Taiwan.

Ah I need a rest.

 

 

Back at your Door - Maroon 5

 

I hate feeling that i need him more than he needs me. I hate asking for more when i know that there is only that much he can give. I hate feeling selfish when i am keeping him from finding someone better. I hate putting him through all this nonsence, but i feel that if this situation can't come to a consensus, I we won't be happy. For better or, for worst..

Getting depress makes me strong in another way.  I wish someone would fathom how I am feeling now, just read my mind. Truth is, I am not strong enough, and if loving him is hurtful, caring about him brings sleepless nights then I am a failure. Sigh

❤, angelseah
i want to feel more loved, is it that difficult for you to give?

Fat flabs fat flabs (╥﹏╥)

 

Currently: In the Office

Time-Check: 4pm

Mood: Procrastinating

 

An-Gel Seah needs to: Start Exercising. Lose her tummy fats. Tone her flabby arms. Get rid of her fat tighs. Stop eating fattening food. No more snacking. And most important of all, needs motivation to start doing it. A mission to get a victoria's - secret - model - like - body, thou will be disciplined and start making sacrifices at the dinner table and eliminate fats & heavy weight training to avoid muscle gain. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. So. Tough.

 

HOW?!? 4 Days a Week: Gyming or maybe a jog in the park on Tuesday & Thursday? Taking up a course on Friday? ( KickBoxing? Hot Yoga? Cardio? ) Maybe batminton cycling, bballing or a swim on Saturday? Better get Liying to do it with me, I need a companion. Haha #Fingerscrossed

 

Seeya, angelseah :) 

Surmise

He says what he likes, he does what he likes, like it doesn't matter. I guess i have to act like i don't care because it is easier that way. Somethings are not meant to be when people just don't appreciate. Somethings that we're warned, but still repeat the same mistake. Someone that you love & cherish much, doesn't seem to be able to last... Because it hurts too much to love you, i am not strong enough, i feel like giving up.

 

The world is a dangerous place to live -

not because of the people who are evil

but because of the people 

who don't do anything about it

- Albert Einstein

 

angelseah

1st Month ❤

How did 1 month pass by so soon? Just received my 1st paycheque :D Today's a day for a celebration, for not one but two events, theeeen really gotta start saving.. for the future, for a sense of security...Yes?

Ah, I want to travel. &&&&&&& Get my iPhone5 pronnto!

Big :D
Goodbye!
angelseahhhhh
out

Tired tired tired

Feeling tired from constant headache, nausea, cramps & tummy-ache, like motion sickness &I don't even know what is wrong because it's starting to annoy me. Please let it not be food poisoning again..  -______-  I hate being sick! & Working makes me feel hungry every time! Better start my diet drink...I'm gaining weightttttttt. Sigh, the curse of office jobs...

A step at a time
Fighting,' angelseah

Confession

'Heyloooooo dearest blogspot! I'm in the office right now practically dying from boredom because my in-charge hasn't arrive yet & I am stuck at projects costing page, haven't got a clue how to continue. Oh-noo D;

- : I've always been afraid to lose you, so I kept a distance to hide my honest feeling that I actually liked you too. Waiting seems forever when you disappear, your words & actions makes me think that you can find someone else to love so easily that made me held back. Afraid to make you feel controlled & lose your freedom when you tell me you'll leave if there's such a case. All these insecurities from the start, I guess the more I hid my feeling, the more I fell. But now I'm taking a step at a time, to enjoy our moment together without regrets. I'm happy to have met you ❤

Xoxo, angelseah

Quotes

'Sometimes, is it better to not exist? 

But if that means i'm not gonna know you at all, 

i would rather be alive and suffer the consequences. 

If the existing of pain and tears means love, 

then yes. i love you.'

xoxo, angelseah

Chinese New Year

Currently: Workspace, waiting for 12:30.
Mood: Patient
Time: 10:02 AM

A week has passed & Chinese New Year is right around the corner! Can't wait for the holidays, it's been so busy and hectic, with piles of work and stuff going on...Just looking forward to hang out with the clique and relax, have fun and just. chill. Laughs

Ah, So much to do, so little time
/Signning out~ angelseah.

Oh man oh man oh mannn,

We laugh.
We cry.
What am I feeling right now,
all i can do is sigh.
See that's the thing about having a new job.

In less than 10 hours time..
D; Haiyoyoyoyoyo

/. Update !

Plans to Korea are starting to work out, :D 

Got accepted by Comtrac to be Glenn's "Personal Assistant" starting 4th, & basically just to help lessen his workload from now. It'll be stressful & tough but I hope I can must persevere. Looking forward to this full time job and I've got to really learn all that I can here. 

So, Fighting!
angelseah

READY FOR KOREA __*

Really excited for Korea trip this June (3 weeks+) ! With awesome people, shopping, food & sightseeing, it can't get any better than this :> But, I'm a tad hopeful that the others are joining us because the more the merrier yes?

Thoughts:

Travelling the world is a dream for many & I am thinking, what's mine? 
Where do I want to go to? If I could travel right now for free, where?
I've thought about it for sometime now..

So here's my dream,

I want to board a cruise to Alaska to witness the magical Aurora/Northern lights with their Ice-Age old glaciers - snow mountains - rivers & fjords. The cool breeze, icebergs, colorful lights & peace. Sighh, serenity, one of the most the most spiritual and beautiful places in the world. Just imagining it makes me happy :>

Joy,
angelseah.

Mission #1 : Korea

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you . 

Actually no, I don't. 

Just really dislike what you're doing. 

Hah, 自暴自弃. Good for you. 

It's been awhile since I last blog. Working my ass off to earn my fair keep of money & get my air tickets booked for Korea in June & save up a whole lot for shopping! :D :D :D So from now it's basically no unnecessary spending, i must maintain. 

Will keep working working working working, till June that is. 

Sigh, gotta plan my education a-sap. 
At least a Degree in Singapore to survive. 

You can do it , Seah An-gel. Must.

#Love photography, Olympus EPL-5 please.

Expectations , Disappointments

It really disheartens me to see people that prove worthy to me get engulfed by failure & end up ruining themselves just because of one minor setback in life. Going back on their words/promises really makes one disgusted. Thank you for letting me see who's real & who's not. That is probably why people fails my test every. single. time. 

Not for me, but yourself.

Good day
- angelseah