Resolutions For 2018

Reminder to myself:

1. To give more than receive, to give without expecting anything in return. It's not easy to be honest. There is always this tiny bit of hope inside of me wishing that people will reciprocate... but it's sad to know that people these days only prioritise happiness for themselves and not for others. And If everyone insists on receiving without giving, then who would each person receive from? 

2. Only say good things, give more compliments, say thank you more instead of always saying sorry. Help people willingly and never put others down. Don't judge and criticise people on how they look, because no one likes being called dark, fat or ugly. Even if you think of it, don't speak of it, because it just makes you look bad.

3. Accept that not everyone is the same. What good you've done for others, don't expect that they will do the same for you. Understand that people are all for themselves at the end of the day. Don't count on people remembering what good you have done for them or even think that they will return their gratitude and most people are selfish or blinded by money.

4. Don't let negative words or actions affect you and never let emotions get the better you. It's not easy when my mum communicates by scolding and shouting. Take a deep breath, don't argue back because it's not worth it. Hugging your pillow and frustrate yourself to sleep works too.

5. Be content with what you already have and appreciate the simple things in life. Do what's right, not because you should, but because you want to. Even when everyone around you is spreading negativity, complaining about life, being angry, unhappy, troubled, depressed, remember to not be the same, instead spread love, happiness and remember to give thanks everyday regardless how big or small.

Good luck for 2018, Fighting!

SEVENTEEN DIAMOND EDGE EXPERIENCE BANGKOK ˉ̡̠̭̭”( ⑉¯ །། ¯⑉ )ˉ̡̠̭̭”

Today marks the end of Seventeen's 1st World Tour.

Don't know about Chanel but my post concert depression is real T____T Feeling emotional....and thinking back, it's been helluva journey flying to Bangkok and then to Jakarta and winning free VIP tickets for Diamond Edge in Singapore. Having mixed feelings between happy and sad because firstly I'm in need of some rest and secondly, I miss Jeonghan already... o(╥﹏╥)

Received quite an amount of fan service from Svt ever since they recognized our fan-board from Bangkok! Didn't expect any fan service at all since it's our first time seeing them and vice versa. I hope Jeonghan still remembers my fanboard the next time I see him.

05 August, 2017 | DE BANGKOK !!

The queue to enter the concert was according to our ticket number so we were able to walk around the venue before the show starts. There were tons and tons of booths selling fan-made merchandises (Holy SVT Heaven!!!). I wanted to buy EVERYTHING. They had hologram T-shirts with the different members name on it, fan pickets both glam and meme-face ones, carat bongs, caps, bags, toys, photocards, keychains, hairbands, posters, badges and a pillowcase with a friggin huge Jeonghan face on it. Chanel ended up buying a hologram Scoups T-shirt, Scoups name hairband, Scoups nametag for her caratbong. We shared jeongcheol fan pickets and I obviously bought the Jeonghan pillowcase. ＼(((￣(￣(￣▽￣)￣)￣)))／ﾔｯﾀｰ!

Photo-op wall + our fanboard #JEONGCHEOL #Heart

Stood at the 2nd row from main stage and we felt like giants! The concert hall only held 5500 fans? So it felt a little bit like a private event to me. Luckily we didn't wear heels or we'd be looking so out of place like pillars. Felt apologetic to the other fans...Chanel couldn't give two hoots about it since we're already wearing sneakers LOL and actually Jeonghan likes cute-petite girls with short hair. Sadly I'm neither T^T *cries*

Opening Stage

Chanel waved her board when Scoups came out and he looked surprised to see such a huge fanboard lol smiled at her waving happily hahaha. There were not many Scoups and Jeonghan fans but loads of Hoshi fans around us so Scoups gave Chanel one of the most heart shattering fan service ever!!! He stared directly at her for at least 5 seconds, gave her a smexy look, threw a wink paired with his iconic smile. Rude (ヾﾉ꒪ཫ꒪ )(ヾﾉ꒪ཫ꒪ )(ヾﾉ꒪ཫ꒪ ) 

Jeonghan's fan service! Finally spotted my fanboard during Vocal Team's stage! ﾍ(=￣∇￣) He waved to his fansites a lot and also to Thai carats that kept screaming his name. Gahh, he's so good to his fans!! He is unbelievably good looking in real life and he's gaining even more popularity after cutting his long hair!!! ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

End Talk Stage

Scoups and Jeonghan saw our fanboard and kept glancing towards us after whispering to each other, acting shy and laughing at some inside joke as well. Bff say's they are gossiping about us......Must.not.be.delusional.

   
Scoups nodding his head and smiling in response to her mouthing "Happy Birthday Scoups" to him and throwing him a heart. JH noticed too. because someone stealing his man.

JEONGCHEOL MOMENTS!

Jeonghan looking at us after Scoups hit him because Chanel kept asking Scoups for some Jeongcheol fan service but both of them were too shy to give. ㅠ_ㅠ

Chanel told me that Mingyu was looking at us a lot but I was more focused on Jeonghan. Poor boy was standing in front of us and maybe he wanted some of our attention? So I turned to the front and snapped a picture of him. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

#1 Bias Wreaker Mingyu

Looking pleased that I gave him some attention.

Calling him Puppy Gyu.

Jeonghan keeps glancing into the cam looking all shy and SO CUTE!! Arms were starting to ache from recording so I "back-hugged" Chanel to rest my arms while she continued waving to Scoups and blocking my fancam. P.s Svt low key liking girl-to-girl skinships lmao｡ﾟ(TヮT)ﾟ｡

Jeonghan thank you speech to us!!

Guessing he said something about carats because both Scoups and Jeonghan looked at us after that and many fans were screaming. BUT I'M SORRY!! WE DON'T UNDERSTAND KOREAN NOR THAI !! ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

No #1 Reason to go to a concert that speaks your language

Thai fans also organised a surprise for Scoups as it was also his birthday that day. During a song we all held up slogans in Korean that wrote "Scoups ya~ Happy Birthday" and he was so happy and thankful for it and kept thanking us all throughout the entire song.

Received a heart racing fan service from Jeonghan!!! (ΦωΦ) He was hiding behind Seungkwan and suddenly stuck his tongue out to lick his lips while looking into my camera! ~!@#$%^&*()_+ He threw a cheeky smile after that. Satisfied with his own fan service. Feeling attacked. 

Hi-Touch Session

My ticket no.109 got chosen for Hi-Touch but Chanel didn't get picked. I wanted to sell my Hi-Touch ticket away because I felt sad for her but she told me to not be an IDIOT and GO because if she won the Hi-Touch, she won't feel sad for me at all and would probably flaunt her ticket to me everyday -_- Yeah okay....

Luckily she's my bff aka. the only love hate relationship I can appreciate

Hi-Touch Afterthoughts:

1. Everyone tells me that we won't be able to remember every member and everything will happen really quickly. IT'S DAMN TRUE.

2. I'm really really not good with 1-to-1 meetings and Hi-Touch is officially one of them.

Expectations: Speak calmly to every member, praise their performance and whatnot.

Reality: GAHHHHASJKBADOINOSKDJL...HI!!! (fml)

Remembered: The8 was first, he waved and smiled cutely. Then Woozi was next, he just smiled / nodded and I don't remember who's next in line but Mingyu was smiling widely with eyes opened hella big and he didn't Hi-5 my hand, he grabbed my hand and gave a big squeeze while caressing it ⁄(⁄ ⁄•⁄-⁄•⁄ ⁄)⁄ I was already walking to next member and he's still holding my hand Lol (Bias wrecker!!!)... Remembered Vernon because I TRIPPED on the damn barricade that was sticking out and he GRABBED MY HAND halfway through the Hi-5 and pulled me backwards, saving me from falling face flat onto the floor. (He's surprisingly strong(?) because I'm not exactly light) I also made an 'eek' sound when I tripped and some members turned to look (FMLX3333) Vernon said "Hey!! Be careful~!" quite loudly too. Geh, I'm so embarrassed but thanks for saving me.. I spoke gibberish to Scoups (wanted to say my friend loves you and she says Happy Birthday) I was kinda flustered after Vernon and my mind wasn't working really well. 

Finally, I SAW JEONGHAN and SAID SARANGHAE and ran away because I'm a fool. (He was the last one in line too!) I'm so awkward in situations like this. I should have stood in front of Jeonghan and stare at him until the guards chased me away. I should have petted his head and praise him for his awesome performance today. I should introduce myself and tell him how much I love him. But I need more courage. I need to quickly master my Korean language. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

Went to their Hotel to see them off before they left for the airport and while waiting we made a new thai-carat friend who is a Mingyu stan. Seventeen came down in 2 lifts and Jeonghan was wearing all white with black mask. They stood at the lift lobby for awhile and moved out together in a group. We said and waved goodbyes and they looked really tired.

After that I found out from their "Going Seventeen" vlive that they were playing around at the hotel's pool earlier. That explains why they were so tired. Lol. At least they are happy. 

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Bye Bye!

*Read Diamond Edge Jakarta : Here*

Listen, understand, acknowledge and apologize

Walking away halfway through an argument is one of the worst things a guy can do. Expectations hurt. Disappointments hurt. Frustrations hurt. I should have known, change is hard and he'll never change... or he would have long ago.

I'm not trying to win an argument, all i want is to speak the reason about what I'm upset with. Saying "I'm Sorry. But....*excuses*" doesn't sound sincere to me at all. 

A simple "I'm sorry, I understand your point. I should not have fell asleep, I didn't mean to...Just too tired. I want to see you and make you happy since I made you angry yesterday. Please let me do something, what can i do to make it up to you?" can take an argument from 90 to 0, without having to necessarily give in.

But instead, you shut me down and brushed me off saying:

"Anything I say will just make you angry right"

"Forget it, i don't need your help. I'll just find other ways on my own." 

*walks away*

Okay.

My heart hurts.

Why I Love Haikyuu

Unexpected Birthday Surprise #Part2

"It's nice when you meet up with an old friend, 

and see how much you've both grown..."

Went somewhere else for "round 2" with Kiat and Fong after Timbre. Thinking back the last time I went there was with Jon and Liying... it's like taking a trip down memory lane but this time it's just Jon, without Liying and I didn't know how to react at first while Jon just looked shocked I'm here. Lol

After all, it's been 2 years since we met and and I'm glad that we managed to talk a bit. He changed (in a good way), quite a lot in terms of how to dress up and his new career. Hearing him give up on love made me feel a little sad but to be honest...who am I to comment? I'm kinda the same way too. Just be happy, love will find it's way.

Met a friend of theirs that sings like he eats CD for breakfast!! And a Malaysian guy that speaks with a British accent LOL. He's the comedian of the party, I laughed till my face hurt. I apologize for forgetting their names, I am just so bad with names >-<

Fong and Kiat also improved in singing! They are so good now that I can't help but keep praising them because it. is. that. shocking.

Unexpected Birthday Surprise #Part1

 THANK YOU HARRIS, KIAT & FONG for the BIRTHDAY SURPRISE!! 

It was perfect, exactly how I liked it to be. Simple and helluva chill! 

It's the best.

They deserve a "Thank You Post" because the greatest gift you can give to someone is time, and when you dedicate your time, you are offering a part of your life that you will never get back...and I really appreciate that. 

Anyway, celebrating my birthday freaking 10 DAYS in advance(!?) is definitely the first for me. First time visiting Switch by Timbre too and it was packed with people all waiting for the band (To Much Drama) to start their next set. It's my first time hearing about them and Shu Kiat + Harris kept raving about Benjamin like legit fanboys I swear. LOL. I've never heard of TMD and Benjamin sorta caught my attention and I was staring at him the whole time because he was wearing glasses his vocal range was impressive.

Went to the washroom after the first set list ended and Harris, Kiat, Fong started singing Happy Birthday with a Chocolate Mille Crepe from Lady M! (omg I LOVE Lady M's crepes!) Yee Fong was singing EMBARRASSINGLY LOUD aka attracting a lot of unwanted attention and I had to fight him and cover his damn mouth. #FML He also sent a message on timbre's tv and Ben thought it was funny so he read it out loud on stage for the entire timbre to hear. #FMLx100 

Liying also secretly sent a message on tv asking me not to keep falling down LOL. I just KNOW it had to be her. After that, every other lamest joke Fong sent in got read by Ben too. /Sweatdrop. I give up. Accept the FACT that I have an embarrassing friends. It's kinda hilarious thinking back about it.

Honestly, the thought about even celebrating my birthday this year didn't cross my mind at all. At this age birthdays just feels like another 24-hours to me and right now, just spending precious time with the people I love on weekends, doing nothing and simply just enjoying each other's company makes me really happy. During the weekdays I just want to stay home to game, watch Seventeen and sleep.

Also, Harris says even when I'm almost 25 I still fell for his surprise while other people would have already suspected or guessed it... (;￣ー￣川 To my defense, Harris told me that the others wanted to have a belated birthday dinner for him so I assumed that this dinner was to celebrate his birthday. I actually saw the cake box too but didn't question it at all. (╯ಠ_ಠ）╯︵ ┳━┳ I should have more awareness but I'm just too lazy to think so much. 

"to give and not expect anything in return, that is what lies at the heart of love" 

angelseah, Signing off~

FTISLAND THE TRUTH 2017

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FTISLAND finally returned to Singapore for their Concert and it was helluva LIT. Hong Ki's sexy husky vocal-cords live ٩(♡ε♡ )۶. Him trying to learn singlish and giving up, I just love his voice. He can speak gibberish and I'd be okay with that. 

Made new Primadonna friends from overseas and they were in crazy mode. You don't need weed or vodka and she's already high. I'm glad we met, she's funny. Chanel spotted Riona and Liying said that she smiled at her so she kinda strained a smiled back. That two faced backstabber don't deserve a smile though. Don't need fake people like you in my life #sorrynotsorry 

The queue to enter the concert was according to our concert ticket number and I preordered the tickets from 5tislandsg so we didn't know what number we'll get. Lucky for us 5tisland happened to have direct contact with the event organizers so our ticket number within the first 40 range! This really made my day. 

Stood beside a Jaejin fanboy and with unintentional stroke of fate/destiny /luck whatsoever, I somehow remembered that we actually met 7 years ago during Singapore's Kpop Night Concert, while waiting for FTI at their hotel. Those were the days man. It's rather amusing to see him still liking Jaejin after so long though. Faithful guys like him deserves my praise haha. Sad side story: Jaejin threw his guitar pick to him and it fell onto the confetti covered floor, we tried searching it for him but someone said it got picked up by another fan. That's so saddening, I got frustrated on his behalf and he's like it's alright.

Side note, I miss Hongki's old voice. He used to sing with his heart and his emotions made me feel what he was feeling too. His voice and ftisland's song genre changed over the years and I didn't felt this emotions anymore. However during this concert, his old voice came back and felt overflowing sadness when he sang one song. Maybe it's caused by his recent breakup but it at that moment, i remembered why ftisland is my no. 1 band.

Feels, angelseah.