Speechless

I'M SO BLOODY PISSED.

I want a dakimakura (aka. long pillow) casing with my anime guy printed on it.
Is there a problem? I like it, so I'm buying it.
Who the hell gave you the rights to announce it to the entire world?
Seriously, I had to request for it to be deleted.
Haven't you heard about respecting one's privacy?

I hate having unnecessary attention.
I hate it when people speak on my behalf when playing games.
I hate when people who are not close to me know about my private stuff.
I hate people that act smart when they are not.
I hate people that just don't understand me after so long.

On top of that, I'm having my pms. 

& To all the men out there: Don't say that you'll treat a women well only when she is having her pms. Saying that just makes you sound like a jerk. Please, you need to treat her well everyday not only during her pms days. Ugh

Jesus.

"Treat me like a queen and I'll make you king."

DREAMCATCHER - CHASE ME

FTISLAND COULD TOTALLY SING THIS.

PERFECT SONG FOR ANIME-K

My love life's a mess #2

Received your contact request from skype, accepted it and then felt like blocking you again. Every time I log into skype, I see our last argument that caused this break up and re-reading it reminded me why breaking up was the right thing to do. I was seething with anger at that time because it wasn't the first time such thing happened and you still gave excuses, tried to argued back, even better, not a "i'm sorry" until 3(?) weeks later. 

Thoughts:

I can't bring myself to be someone that is able to be heartless to an ex, but talking to him like how a friend would (as compromised), DOES NOT mean that I'm giving him a chance. Sigh, what should I do? I don't want to hurt him again and it also hurts me to have to repeat myself so many times.. Why do I feel that he just doesn't understand that there's absolute zero chances of us getting back together? Am I giving false hopes? I'm sorry for the misled. It's frustrating when he's still persistent about 'getting me back' even after I have made it clear to him I'd rather just be friends or none at all. I thought I didn't have to repeat myself but recent actions made me feel like my efforts of making things clear went down the drain, if it continues I'm starting to think that we'd be better off as strangers. To make things worse, our friends still thinks we'll get back together, encouraging us to patch and all. Stop it already... 

Don't promise a future friendship

Definitely don't tell him that you can still be friends because you could mislead him into thinking he has another chance. Men claim they can handle it but deep down think, “Great, I still have time to change her mind.” or “Maybe she’ll come around if we just keep hanging out.” And that’s not a true friendship.These guys will hang around and pretend to be your friend. When you get involved with someone else, they flip out or try to sabotage your connection. They’re angry that you “used” them when in reality, you were just being a friend. It’s best just to move on.

I LOVE DISNEY

Moana official takes the #1 spot in my Disney movies ranking followed by Tangled and Mulan. I like Anastasia too but it's not under Disney. Please no more Frozen. It's EVERYWHERE! Though I admit I like Olaf! And their "First time in forever" for both their normal and reprise version. 

Her voice is just...Disney princess voice goals. Effortless singing.

My love life's a mess #1

I'm bad at love. Romance stories and playing otome love games are cool but when comes to own love life, it's a mess. 

Christmas presents arrived early this year and I received Haikyuu!! Tsukishima's Nendoroid (not cheap) from two different guys, one a friend whom I've know for years ( and the other, an ex. Thoughts like "is this an obligation gift or his declaration of love?", "Should I ask? Can I accept it? What should I do if it's a declaration of love? Please be an obligation gift." Ugh, why does things like this always happen to me. 

I'm a bundle of nerves when rejecting someone, I can't handle an awkward social situation well at all and maybe it's the anxiety or tension, my head hurts like mad after that. Stuffs like this stresses me out af. It's difficult for me to speak the truth when I know it's going to hurt the other party, and saying "i'm just not psychically attracted to you and I'm not exactly feeling it you know?" is not easy for me.

Either way, I always feel emotionally shitty, guilty and terrible sorry after, so I'd appreciate that he would take a hint and don't ask the d-question at all.

Warning: DO NOT put your hand on my thigh (or anywhere else below my shoulders) ever again during a movie. Unless you are my boyfriend, you're invading my comfort zone.

♡ Voltage Inc. ♡

The land of hot men in suits, ties and everything nice ♡

Been playing Voltage's games for a long time since 2013(?) Only a few friends know that I have a private folder in my phone dedicated solely otome games and thinking back, i used to hide these games because I was positive that people would totally judge me for it Lol. While Yan Chin calls it the 'hentai folder', Chanel just thought I was crazy to spend all my money on a game. ◔̯◔

AND FINALLY (after so long!!) Chanel gave my awesome men the game a try and her first story which was Eisuke from Kissed by the Baddest Bidder got her seriously obsessed with the game!! (heehee) She start playing every single story I bought and even raged at me when I didn't buy the guy she liked. Pfffhhh (งಠ_ಠ)ง .....

Yan Chin also started playing voltage recently and her first story was Miyabi from Enchanted in the Moonlight (wooooo!) because I know she LOVES her foxes. (like Tomoe from Kamisama Kiss / Ahri in League) Yeah. I mean, just look at this guy's /fox/ayakashi (doesn't matter) hotness!!

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(WELCOME TO MY VOLTAGE FANDOM GIRLS :D)

Yan Chin says I play too much otome games that's why my expectations of guys are so ridiculously high. Butttt buttt!! I like the guys in such games because they are all old-fashioned-gentlemen! and Chivalry in men is a very attractive thing indeed (●♡∀♡) They love hard and you can definitely feel their sincerity through your phone lol. On top of that, they are also consistent in showing their love. One thing this game thought me was that consistency is really important in a relationship and it keeps the fire burning. Consistency to me means I like you enough to keep trying, to create a lasting bond, to be part of your daily routine, to know that you're always here for me and I can always count on you. I'd like a love that I can justify without any uncertainty or having to doubt that love even once...

I need consistency.

To know that they love you and you can count on their love.

To fall in love with a person a little more each day.

I don't wanna feel that 'dead-end-relationship' feeling anymore.

I know my kind of love is unrealistic but I don't want to settle for anything less.

It's unfair to the other party if I can't to give all of my heart in a relationship. 

Because it's all or never. To give my 1000% maji love (anime pun hahaha) 

Goodnight!!

Anime Festival Asia 2016

Anime Festival Asia 2016!!! 

Gosh it was jam-packed-like-sardines-up-to-the-rafters-brimful of people. I had no place to walk, let alone shop in peace. That aside I didn't buy anything in the end because almost everything has to do with.... Yuri on Ice. (￣д￣) Really? I like Yuri on Ice too but where's the hell is my HAIKYUU. Is it not worth the hype?! 

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Tbh, AFA 2016 didn't meet my expectations and I think I might have preferred last year's one more. Maybe it's because I bought lots of loots last year and none this time. There were so many Nendoroids on sale but Tsukishima was no where to be found. Tch. And every friggin' booth I wanted to buy anime tees from, sells. the. same. thing. Gehhh, It feels wrong to attend AFA without burning a hole in your pocket you know. I was prepared to let my wallet get raped but... there's nothing to buy. Sigh, I tried.

SAO's booth was helluva awesome though, got a chance to "be" Asuna locked up in her giant birdcage in Alfheim without my Kirito. We also went for SAO's main stage show and got to hear Kirito's and Yui's seiyuu voice-act an actual script on stage!! Kirito's voice was sexy af. Yui's voice was just too cute! She kept saying "papa" to Kirito and there was this fucking annoying fanboy who kept squealing "Yui sooooo cuteeeee!! soooo cuteeeeee omg soooo cuteeeee" throughout the entire show. He can even be heard in Yan Chin's instavids too (Like what the flying fuck. We know her voice sounds cute so you can shut up now!!!) Ugh. I wanted to chloroform him so bad. 

Watched SAO - Ordinal Scale's movie trailer during their main stage and the nostalgia hits me like a whisking bullet train of feels... it legit gave me goosebumps and now I'm super excited for it's movie release next year! Sword art online's soundtrack is in a class by itself and great movies always has even greater soundtracks.

Yan Chin and I won a draw and got our faces drawn as a manga character. I don't think this look like me though? Well at least the outfit, hair and hidden necklace looks the same. Re-playing mystic messenger to unlock the other endings and this is the perfect display pic for the game!! Used my current make-up editor app and made it more realistic, so now I match the characters Lol. #creepygamer #team707 #teamjumin

Played Ichiban Kuji for the first time today and won a Lapras Sleeping Bag Pikachu Plush from their latest Pikachu Nebukuro Collection!! I was gunning for their smaller prize though (｡•́︿•̀｡), a Charizard Sleeping Bag Pikachu keychain plush!! It's cute. I'd totally carry it around. Sold my Lapras to Yong Kiat in the end since I already have 2 Pikachu plushies taking up space on my small bed and Nana already promised me a Snorlax Nebukuro Pikachu when her Pokemon event ends. #fingerscrossedhopetogetit!

Managed to get a selfie with Yingtze. She's tall, pretty and friendly.

and She's a Gemini like me :D 

I'm getting too happy with just a picture.

Lolol

To me this year's afa felt like a mad rush and we missed out several showtimes and schedule events due to lack of time. Met Kaname, Stayxxxx, Mon and Reika but didn't get to see Baozi x Hana (sad) Might consider attending AFA for 2 days next year!

Till then ❤