Back at your Door - Maroon 5

 

I hate feeling that i need him more than he needs me. I hate asking for more when i know that there is only that much he can give. I hate feeling selfish when i am keeping him from finding someone better. I hate putting him through all this nonsence, but i feel that if this situation can't come to a consensus, I we won't be happy. For better or, for worst..

Getting depress makes me strong in another way.  I wish someone would fathom how I am feeling now, just read my mind. Truth is, I am not strong enough, and if loving him is hurtful, caring about him brings sleepless nights then I am a failure. Sigh

❤, angelseah
i want to feel more loved, is it that difficult for you to give?

Quotes

'Sometimes, is it better to not exist? 

But if that means i'm not gonna know you at all, 

i would rather be alive and suffer the consequences. 

If the existing of pain and tears means love, 

then yes. i love you.'

xoxo, angelseah

Hopeful person,

Paddle-pop Roses ❤ 

I put people to a test once in awhile. 
But sadly, so many failed. It's disappointing, truly disappointing. 
Always a moment of doubt, honesty, all's just meant to be. 
Take one step a time, no worries. 

:D , angelseah-*

If you're not gonna bother, i'm not gonna care either.

All is but a facade

I need a getaway, to place without constant accuse & falsified lectures from the parents. They don't see my tears of disappointment. Please give me the strength to live on & never return to this forsaken misery. Just where can I go? There's no one to go to when one needs help, what a world.

Replying people with a smile on my texts, a tad too happy. Nobody knows my sorrow tears behind'em, hate myself sometimes, I'm a fake. I envy an open minded family, why can't I have that? :l

Troubles & sadness,
just need a bear hug, 
to cry a river of tears &
tomorrow will be fine.


Fuck this family for I don't have one. Never had.

Moving on

Will there be a day when people stop envying other people? About how they're constantly feeling envious and depressed about everything and their lives are so imperfect... when they don't realize how fortunate they really are to have 'somethings' that people in this world are dying to have. Take a look at other 3rd world countries for example.

I hear a lot of spite, envy & complains on people who put others down, or people who put themselves down. There will always be that one ungrateful person who cannot be contented with how they're living & sadly, that person will never truly be happy.

Amen,
angelseah♥