Exam Over, 2 Weeks Break.

2 WEEKS OF HOLIDAY BUT I AM ALREADY BORED TO DEATH.

ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ

Exams are finally over and after a whole month of mugging, I suddenly realize that I have nothing to do until the start of my final semester, which is in 2 weeks time. & Honestly, 2 weeks ain't that long but it's only been 3 days since my last paper and I'm already bored out of my mind. Ermahgerdddd.

Everyone is either going on a holiday overseas or working while I'm doing a good job in taking up the role of a pig at home. Oh god, gotta find a job soon to keep myself busy lest my brain from rotting.

Been researching on resume template designs to update my resume, & so far i'm satisfied with how it's turning out to be. Hopefully this resume will stand out amidst the others!! I know it's 'not a must' to create such a 'designer' looking resume since i'm not taking up marketing nor designing jobs. But stilllllllllll!! I like it ^-^

All set to embark on a job, new environment, and ready to learn new stuff! Just SO HOPPING that this time, the boss will be a good one, no one likes a demanding or unappreciative boss.

Please let my next boss be like this! *Prayhard* (˘ʃƪ˘)(˘ʃƪ˘)(˘ʃƪ˘)(˘ʃƪ˘)(˘ʃƪ˘)

http://www.lifehack.org/articles/work/20-signs-that-youve-got-good-boss.html

Unappreciated

Have you ever felt that every single thing you do is just unappreciated in the family. Everything you do, they just want more from you. Nothing is ever good enough for them. Always being compared to what they don't have, why other people's kids can do this & I can't. Why can't they just sit down and understand from my point of view for once. Other kids out there in the world are taking drugs, clubbing, gambling, smoking, and not even bother to study. I am not like that, why is it just not enough for you? Why must you compare with with those who are doing more then me? Kicking out of the house just because I voice out my feelings? Is this even fair? Talking to me like trash.. and when I voice out my feelings and anger it's wrong. Am I not human too? Please don't say that I don't appreciate you based on your assumptions. Please don't say that I don't respect you when i just want my opinion to be heard. Sometimes I just want you to talk nicely to me like other parents, praising their kids when they deserved it. Everything I do is taken for-granted, everything I do is just too little and unworthy for you. & when I said what I did, all you can say is 'SO LITTLE, AND YOU WANT CREDIT?"

Since young, never once have I had any single praise from you, everything is just not enough for you. Stupid, unless, fucker, idiot, good for nothing, everything that can be said to condemn me have been said. Never once thinking of my feelings. You say I don't appreciate you, NO ONE LIKES BEING UNAPPRECIATED. It takes both hands to clap, why can't you appreciate me first too? I appreciate, that's why I do the things you ask. But when I do something, you take for granted and say that it's something I should have done. When i don't do something and get scolded useless. What am I supposed to do? And when i ask you to tell me, you say i should be 'automatic'. It's really difficult being being a daughter that then please you. Being filial is not enough, i can't even voice out how I am feeling. I'm just so tired. 

Suddenly, I remember many years ago I felt like this. No one will listen to what I have to say and or understand how I feel.. I thought my parents have started to understand me, but i guess not, it's the same since so many year ago. nothing has changed. No one understands me, not even my parents. Can't even tell my boyfriend, he won't even bother to listen nor understand. I guess I've gotta live life as it is, understand that it'll always be like this, work hard, earn money to buy a house, live my own life & find happiness in dramas and games.

EXAMS

2 days left till exams and i just don't have any motivation or urgency to study at all.
Oh god, I need help. Maybe I'll just work after graduating from this.

Lugged the desktop from the study room over to my room and 'gave' Yan Chin my laptop to play Blackshot. Reason being her current laptop sucked so bad even I can't take it. Sucked is an understatement i swear. Mine's 6 years old, her's is about a year old and there's already something wrong with her keyboard. Been playing Tera recently and being a warrior is strenuous so much so I've abandoned that character after 3 days and went for sorcerer instead. Oh, and bubzbeauty is here in Singapore for fanfest while here i am devoting myself to 'study'. Damn it. Some other things that are distracting me is my newly purchased iPhone6, Taobao and Initial D, Internet's the devil. (,,Ծ‸Ծ,, )

Current song playing. Hongki's voice is love.
Oh and play this song in speed 1.25, it's better. Really
Subin's voice is great too. I guess.

Study. Study. Study.
DISTRACTIONS.
EVERYWHERE.
~!@#$%^&*()_+

Optimistic

Sighhhhh..Once again life isn't acting out as how I've planned it to be. Now, i'm gonna find a job to pay my final semester's fees and hopefully save up enough for a end year Christmas / countdown trip overseas..  So many things I want to do & everything requires money. Damnnn, need to exercise to give me endorphins, endorphins makes me happy.. 

Anyhooo..

Gotta keep the faith because every cloud has a silver lining! (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑Gambateh!

"One cannot surmount the challenges offered without having a preserving attitude" 

- From a manga that i'm currently reading.

Singapore, Awake.

Roads so empty, shopping malls closed, everywhere feels so detached. Everyone is either on the streets saying goodbye or at home watching his final farewell on tv. A historical moment indeed. There's softness in everyone's eyes that i have never seen on such an amazing scale. & i really got to say that this is evidently his last gift to us. He brought us together when he first founded Singapore, and brings us together again as he bids us an eternal farewell.

Dear Mr Lee, I may not know you well but i give my utmost gratitude to you for giving me the chance at freedom. Thank you for your dedication and great leadership that helped build Singapore from a 3rd world country to a metropolis, a place we now call home. Rest in peace Mr Lee. Your legacy will live on forever and you will always be the father of our nation in our hearts.

"When a man cried for a nation, he must have loved the nation.
When a nation cries for a man, he must have built the nation"

#Remembering LeeKuanYew
‪#‎WeOweLKYForever‬
#RIP

Wake up call for Singapore? I wonder...

Last Day of Work!

F R E E D O M .

It feels surreal that I've finally left my first '9 to 5' after 2 years of working full time. Suddenly reality starts to hit me and I feel kinda lost. On one hand, I am really excited to a new future but also feeling kinda apprehensive about losing the stable income that I've been getting.

Thinking back, I've come a long way from the person I was on first day of work and the person I am today. It's hard work (helluva stress, definitely) but I've learned heaps of things that I'll never have learn in school. Contracts, agreements, recruitment, accounting, work relations, marketing, project works, micro-managing and so much more... mannn, I'm truly grateful for this opportunity given to me.

Also, today marks a change of career direction for me, from 'Employed' to 'Self Employed'! Gonna attempt the role of a freelancer or another office role (whichever comes first) and at the same time try to pass with flying colours for my diploma & successfully advance to a degree in HR 

I don't know where I'm going, but I'm on my way.

ONE OK ROCK!

Time Check: 3:11 AM.

Oh-ho? I'm in love with Taka's vocals.

ONE OK ROCK's "Wherever You Are" on repeat.

Goodnight world :)