Officially Sick

Sometimes i ask myself why do i torture myself like this by eating KFC when I know that i am unwell, only to end up with a sore throat, cough, runny nose, blocked nose & headache. But it's only healthy to be sick once in a while because, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?

Drayden the smiley baby <3

He's adorable, a gemini too.
 Just like me!

:D :D :D

Thank you,
for clearing my doubts. 
Didn't regret leaving you

 congratulations, you really are an asshole. 

& I'm truly glad I left.

post with a million meanings

A voice at the back of my head is telling me that i am not ready, but how do i handle this? I ask myself every single day, but this question is truly a tough question to answer because it entails looking at myself, my beliefs, attitude & behavior in a honest way which is never easy. Really hate rushing into things, I need a few months on the sidelines to sort myself out. 

An act that i hate, is this all life's fate? 
Not now, but when will I fully recuperate? 
Oh dear, finding back myself won't be easy, 
sadly because I've already forgotten me.

Woes, 
Goodnight.

Motivation

Time to plan out my resolution for year 2013, I always think it's just a year, number of days, as long as I am breathing and living up everything it'll be okay. In a blink of an eye, people around me has gone on with their lives after high school while I have nothing accomplished. 

I don't want to be that useless person in the society, I want to be able to earn my keep in life to have a comfortable future. I know that if I continue lazing around like how I've been in the past 2 years, I would, sadly be that useless person I don't want to be. Too late to cry over spilled milk & what's planned in time to come i hope to achieve. Bachelor of Business majoring in Marketing & Tourism, tough but i must persevere.

Alas,
Time really flies,
Youth,
only one period of time,
that I can never have it back

Love, angelseah

Judge to condemn.

Just when I thought I can finally take a break, hoping that there won't be more dramatic happenings coming up anytime soon... 

Oh who am I kidding honestly

Dear human nature,

Why, oh why do people judge by making assumptions? We all hate it when people judge, judging can't be avoided but to be wrongly judged is a mistake. Why can't people find out the truth before innocent ones are accused? 

I want to talk to a complete stranger, where all my problems can be dumped onto someone else's shoulder, someone who doesn't even know a single thing about you & someone you can trust to know that he/she won't even judge you. People who judge mindlessly is frightening and makes one feel confused to not know what he/she has done, will avoid such people in the future. Sometimes, it really is a blessing to have friends who spits out the ugly truth about you in the face instead of behind your back.

Period cramps in the middle of the night, 
lower back hurting and pain killers ain't helping. 
trying to get some sleep, with cold sweat.

Mood: annoyed and frustrated

Goodnight, 
peace.

Sniff sniff sniff

Felt sick but didn't want a break, because I felt the need to spend more time with you. It's frightening to think of what will happen in time and I am terrified.

Food almost seems like a close friend to me now and its not necessarily a good thing, health and figure wise. Getting flabby is not pretty! Just very overwhelmed and occupied by the recent good things/someone in life that i have nothing to complain about.

Tough times ahead, there are simply a lot of things to be done and fixed. The beginning of a new journey, problems & complications that lies ahead. Is this what life is, making our path as difficult as possible so we learn to appreciate our future? Sigh, life is complicated, and I need to compensate for the hurt i've caused. I'll try my best even when i know my best is still not enough, fight through all that & good times will come.... I hope?

Will sleep now, nose killing my eyes. All for now, xoxo.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." ~ Marilyn Monroe

Hmm...

If love is all about reciprocate; then I don't think it's selfish.

Dear you,

Let's fall and embrace each other, tell me what's wrong or right. Thank you for guiding me, and lighting up my way. Chariot me, cause you're oddly the only one. With everything that have been bringing me down, I know it's you who I can run to, back to you in safe arms. Just when I thought you are the usual come and go, you tell me you come to stay. That words and action of yours, as steady as anything, made you oddly the only one that I know I could never avoid, cause you are my safe-heaven when a bad day falls. How you caught me off guard is indescribably you. & I want to thank you for being here. Holding a smile here, we don't need that name to prove us but I need the closure. Being with you, even once in a blue moon is enough to start a fairytale story. The kind we know that we are still in love inside but least mentioned together. 

Life is gonna be mundane when you’re gone.

Dilemma

How do i choose between someone who I've lost feelings for months ago only to wish that i can go back in time to search of those feelings back. While the other whom i cannot possibly give my faith to because of the words he wrote. Call me insecure but i don't want to feel like a substitute, afraid to make the wrong choice & only to see it happen again. 

Unfortunately, a decision like this isn't always as easy as flipping a coin. At the same time i brought this on myself & i deserve the pain and anguish that i brought upon.

Questions in my mind, can't say that i'm fine.

I know there has to be just one. 

I need an affirmation, an assurance.

I don’t know I just feel like I should stop thinking about it but I can’t. Maybe I’ve seen too many movies, you know, love at first sight. What do you think about love at first sight? You think you can love somebody just by looking at ‘em? But the thing is, man, I felt like I knew her. You know. You ever get that feeling? - Blue Valentine